despondent

But earlier on the day of the break-in, he’d posted an episode in which he described feeling despondent about the condition of the city.

“I hope that this series will remind people that we know how to fight, and we can fight again. It’s okay to feel despondent, but it’s time to summon our resolve.”

Mark’s outie has been despondent since his wife died in a car accident, which led him to take the severed job at Lumon so he wouldn’t have to think about her loss constantly.

And this will happen on multiple fronts to keep us occupied and distracted, despondent and in chaos.

Blouin did however grow deeply despondent that Africa had not become "free", as she had hoped.